Too much time for thinking

Have you ever had that gut wrenching, deep down, heart throbbing feeling about something you just know is going to end up wrong? Almost like, you want something so bad, but there isn't anything in the world that you can do to get it. Or if you could have it, would you be able to live up to it's expectations?

Why do I always feel like I'm having to pass tests?

I've had all day to think, hence why its "too much time for thinking" and even in the end, I don't know what to do.

"No one needs to know right now."